Warning : SPOILERS AHEAD for the Kdrama “Twenty Five Twenty One”
This is the second poem I wrote, the first one was Letting You Go by Na Heedo.
I just finished watching the finale of the Kdrama “Twenty Five Twenty One” and was so heartbroken. Not sure why but it felt like I had broken up with somebody as well. The love story of Na Heedo and Back Yijin was so special and to see them part ways was just painful. I am affected until now, two days after I watched it. I figured I needed to say goodbye through writing and though of writing a poem of each of their perspectives. So here is the poem I wrote from Back YiJin’s perspective. I used some dialogue from the English subtitle and what I think he thought. This is just my interpretation and I just wrote down the scenes from memory so some sequence may not be accurate.
Back YiJin was a character with a very sad backstory but he became so happy while with Na Heedo. He was caring, gentle, responsible, but was burdened with his family problems and the things he had to do in order to be a good reporter. Nam JooHyuk was great as Back YiJin. One of the reason I watched “Twenty Five Twenty One” was because of him. I liked his character Nam DoSan in “Start-Up”.
I hope I represented what he really thought as I man thinks differently from a woman.
Disclaimer: I am not a professional poet so this poem does not adhere to any literary standard of poems.
MOVING MOUNTAINS, CHASING STARS by Back YiJin My youth was happy I was young, looking forward To a bright future ahead I wanted to chase stars Working at NASA was a dream But the times were harsh 1998 took away all I had My dreams, my family, our money My world was upside down Who can I turn to? Why has this happened? Everyday is a struggle Making ends meet, being lonely I grabbed every job available I had no degree, what can I be? A comic book store attendant And a newspaper boy is what I am now Fate played me a game I broke a water fountain A girl called me out That was weird and awkward I kept seeing that girl She seemed lost but brave I had to save her from that bar At least a soul less miserable This girl broke down over a comic book I thought it was funny I learned she wanted to be a fencer It seems she was having a hard time I always see her and her aura draws me Reminds me of my youth When I dared to dream When my worries were nothing To what real life really is Then she saw it, the way they shouted And blamed me and my family I was ashamed, embarrassed But she was nice, showed me somewhere It was a school faucet She said it made her happy And for a moment I was Forgot my worries, was problem-free On that tunnel that day She was my star Shining so brightly on my life I never felt that way about anyone But she was young and I was an adult I had to be cautious But to my surprise I became bolder I wanted to show her my support We shared happy moments As we promised we would One day they attacked my brother And reality set it again I chose to run, to stay away I left our happy bubble Worked hard away from trouble Still, I missed her Checking my voicemails, I was surprised to hear her voice My star shining bright Giving me hope and light I needed to move on Find a better opportunity for us I loved broadcasting class Could I be a reporter? Found an ad of UBS Studied hard to pass that test Moved back to the city Could I see her again? We met again unexpectedly Then she introduced me to her boyfriend I laughed it off but deep inside Jealousy was killing me Being a sports reporter Made me always see her I cheered her from up close Witnessed her brilliance, see her shine She called our relationship a rainbow For a lack of a better word I had to always protect her From the harshness of this world I learned she yearned for an outing She had never been to one I set out a plan to make it come true I gave that summer for you I never shared my thoughts But one day I had to say it It was not rainbow but love A word too big for her then A new millennium was on its way Things were changing and so was she She was blossoming into a woman She was bolder than I thought I saw her lips, I didn't move She kissed me, it felt good But I was afraid if I could give her What she wanted and deserved I avoided her against my will Listened to the world's advice She kept coming to my door It's so hard to fight myself When she cried and called my name I could no longer fight it Had to kiss her to let her know She was the most precious girl I said let's try this kind of love But what love can I offer? What promises could I give her? Maybe it could work, I would give it all I never thought about hurting people And it was painful to do so My job required me to A hard pill to swallow I had hurt Yu-rim Would Hee-do be next? I changed departments to protect her But finding time for her was tougher I kept breaking my promises I tried to avoid giving her trouble And I felt she hated my absence It gave me pain to see her hurt I thought work was getting better But a reporter's job was tough Seeing other people's misery Making news out of it I planned a vacation To make up for lost time and celebrate But again the times were fickle It hurled stones at me once more The horrors in New York Gave me nightmares, made me weak I wanted to keep it together I wanted us to be together But how can I? I am only human If only I could fly to see her If only I had another job opportunity I felt stuck between two mountains I could neither move any of them Maybe if I stayed silent She would hate me and move on I tried to avoid her still Avoid her gaze, not to see her pain That couple luggage was switched Forcing me to face what I avoided She wanted to break up Why on this place I met her? Again on that special tunnel She said words that were true My star, how can I reach you? You were shining for the world I can only see your light from afar And that may be enough for now I saw you again with my luggage Could I take it to say goodbye? But I had to, we had to I had hurt you so much Thank you my love You were my shining star In my darkest nights I was lucky to have your light If only I had my riches If only I can give you all you want My time, my affection, But my hands are tied I knew I could only have you for a while But I still tried knowing it's futile I had the privilege of knowing A great woman in my life, my starlight. ---------- Please read "Letting you go", Na HeeDo's perspective here.
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