- Warning : SPOILERS AHEAD for the Kdrama “Twenty Five Twenty One”
I just finished watching the finale of the Kdrama “Twenty Five Twenty One” and was so heartbroken. Not sure why but it felt like I had broken up with somebody as well. The love story of Na Heedo and Back Yijin was so special and to see them part ways was just painful. I am affected until now, two days after I watched it. I figured I needed to say goodbye through writing and though of writing a poem of each of their perspectives. So here is the poem I wrote from Na Heedo’s perspective. I used some dialogue from the English subtitle and what I think she thought. This is just my interpretation and I just wrote down the scenes from memory so some sequence may not be accurate.
Na Heedo was a really lovable character – bubbly, spirited, strong-willed and Kim Taeri gave a brilliant performance. It thought she was in her early 20s but she is 31 years old, so it was pure genius how she gave life to an 18 year old girl.
Disclaimer: I am not a professional poet so this poem does not adhere to any literary standard of poems.
LETTING YOU GO by Na Heedo
You broke our water fountain But you saved me on that bar Our paths always crossing Until you saw me cry over that comic book Then I saw you that night Your tears pierced my heart You said you will never be happy But why? You were young I know that feeling Of having no one Of being alone Of wanting to cry But having to be strong So I decided on that day To put a smile on your face That maybe we can be allies In our loneliness It was great to experience That first faucet waterfalls with you To share my simple joys To shed some light Day by day our friendship grew I found myself always wanting to see you You made an effort to see me too Suddenly the world was better My dream was coming true You say the nicest words One day you disappeared But I knew you had to take care of things I sent a voice message And so did you Glad to know my support has reached you You promised you'd be back And I held on to that Then it happened We met again unexpectedly It was funny you met my boyfriend I wanted to experience love But I was not ready I was confused when you reappeared So I broke up with him Our friendship resumed I became friends with Yu-rim Life became fuller as I had more friends Our group adventures were funny I found people to lean on So did you or so I thought Your new job was stressful But you never shared it I guess you thought I was too young To even understand it I won a prize but people questioned You found me and found a way To redeem my reputation Thanks to you I had a rainbow My ray of light after a storm We worked together On a documentary show It was nice of you to think Of an outing for us all That summer was special One of the best days of my life We were young, life was joyful We claimed that summer was ours I was surprised when you told me What we had was not a rainbow It was love for you But was it love for me too? Times were changing A new millennium on its way Seungwan and Yeji moved on I felt I had to do the same I thought about what I wanted To do on that New Year I saw your face and knew It was you I wanted You avoided me and it hurts I kept coming to your door Your were afraid to hurt me But why don't we try to make it work? It felt right when you kissed me We were happy and free The world knew our love And I was also winning games It was sad when Yu-rim left I hated you for exposing her But it was what you had to do too You never told me anything about work Yu-rim was far away and you were near Physically close but sparsely there The waiting game was killing me I felt like that child waiting for mom Longing for time, seeking attention Mom had to ask it, if it was okay If the man I would marry be like her too I said yes, but was it true? New Year came and I was glad To see you work and be together You led me to that city view You turned 25, I turned 21 We were so in love I held on to your promise that new year That we would at least be there Together every year I tried to believe it, to hold on to it We planned a trip Maybe it would make us closer But there was a shattering event There was news you needed to cover It reminded me of when mom Missed dad's funeral again Though you left a cake and letter Maybe our destiny would be different I missed you and saw you on tv Days turned into months You were barely responding Did I still have a boyfriend? That new year promise Was not fulfilled There alone I stood wondering What became of your love My games kept me busy Then my mom had to say me You applied for New York Was it too hard to tell me? We were barely talking Until you said it yourself That you will work in New York I was numb at that point You said you will be back To wrap up things in Korea Was I part of that plan? Would our schedules meet? You grabbed my luggage by mistake I thought it was ironic That couple luggage made us meet again But you just left it outside our door Why couldn't you even come inside to see me? Were you too busy or was I a stranger? So I fumed and asked for a breakup Even if it was half-meant When could we talk about it? Why do you avoid it? I brought things out on that tunnel Thoughts in my mind though it hurts I love you and what we had Yet we are no longer the same I want an honest conversation I no longer know your situation I knew you needed that job I was busy and so are you Our love was good while it lasted It was hard to say goodbye I ran fast as I learned you were leaving I had to at least see you go To see your face, to touch your hand I was lucky to get an embrace Goodbye my first love I didn't know it would hurt this bad When I still want you But I cannot have you Maybe a fleeting moment was all we really had.
P.S.
Also created a poem on Back YiJin’s perspective “Moving Mountain, Chasing Stars”
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